I'm only going to surround myself with mature people from now on. Whatever age, it doesn't matter. I've lost friendships very dear to me and some friendships that I was just happy to get off my back because I was much too complex for certain others.
Just recently, I lost a friendship that was only good for one thing: me discovering Fall Out Boy. Now, don't get me wrong, I will admit that I may have possibly used this person for certain things, but it doesn't matter.
I'm the type of person who, if you love me, you are loyal to me, you will never talk behind my back, I will love you, I'll be loyal to you, and I will never talk behind your back. But if you are my friend only to find out what my feelings are, or stuff about my life to hurt me, then you will most certainly know that I'm only your friend for the same reason.
I give what I receive; plain & simple. I'm not going to tie my panties in a knot if you dislike me, or if you want to end our friendship. Because if you are one of my true friends, you won't want to end our friendship. And I love you for that.
I'm a very moody person. I'm a bitch. I'm a complex person. I think highly of myself, and anyone who mistakes that for narcississm clearly has some self esteem problems of their own. I'm a great friend. You can totally trust me with anything.
But if I get just an inkling that you are betraying me, watch out. It may just be the last time I ever do anything nice for you.
Don't be afraid to talk about it. Don't block me on messengers. If I block you, it's because at the moment, I don't feel like discussing it. There's probably more going on. At this moment, my grandpa is dying, and I love him so much, so no doubt about it, my buttons have already been pushed, and you don't want to push them some more.
The point is, no more phonies. No more obsolete dingbats (as Rita Skeeter puts it). If you expect me to be your friend, then you need to be a friend. I'm not going to deal with anymore people who will only be my friend until someone cooler comes around. And if I have been ignoring you, then I probably feel like you are one of those people who are only my friend until someone cooler comes around.
So basically, the people who I love because they actually value our friendship: Amanda, Doniyel, Matt, Sutton, Raquel, Ashley, Rachel, Liz, Jamie, John, Adrian, Ashley two, Alyson, Jordan. And there's many more, but thanks for being a friend. <3
This recent loss, if you can call it that because I don't consider it very important, has taught me many things. I'm grateful for what life has brought me these past few months. The ups and the downs, just like a rollercoaster, are exciting.
Oh, and one more thing:
U-NO-POO: The constipation sensation that's gripping the nation!
Lmfao, Fred & George Weasley <3