The Life of a Fangirl

SO...

2006-07-18T01:44:25Z

I made a new journal.
Nothing HP related is going into it.
I'm sorry. I kind of grew out of the whole being HP obsessed thing.

Sorry about Butterflies & Badgers...
I don't know. I was planning on writing the next chapter a few weeks ago.
But it just doesn't appeal to me right now.
I still have the whole ending in my head. I'd put it here, but some people might not want it ruined...
It's behind the cut.

so you know cho killed fleur's mom. cho goes to azkaban, theres a riot at school about it, harry gets really sad, cedric freaks out, fleur is out the competition as you know but she misses cedric so she goes to see him in the third task. he dies in the third task, fleur is sad, and she kills herself. yeah. that is what i had planned. kinda romeo & juliet-ish but yeah... =/

yeah so, goodbye. =] i won't be checking this lj anymore. ever. leaving a comment on it would be pointless. yeah.

updates!

2006-06-11T10:11:11Z

So many new things to tell you but I can't do it right now!

Anyway...

Butterflies & Badgers: I know I said I'd have the last chapter up soon, but I lied. Sorry. I'm going to do it sometime this week, don't worry!

I have been so unbelievably busy it's not even funny. I will explain later. I know I keep saying that but I am not supposed to be up & online right now lol.

Okay well I'll update tomorrow maybe. Bye!

it's summer!

2006-05-26T06:48:48Z

so school is officially out.
and i've lost interest in LJ.
and there will only be ONE more chapter to B&B.
sorry.
but i don't feel like writing it anymore.
but it will be a long chapter!
i'll start on it tomorrow.

so this week has been fun.

2006-05-19T01:01:33Z

i'll explain more later.
<3

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 8

2006-05-13T18:22:33Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 8
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur (Ginny/Draco, even though it's not the main pair!)
Warnings: making out, character death (not a main character though...so it's not bad, just thought I'd put this warning here since the death isn't canon)
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: Cedric and Fleur's relationship is a bit rocky. Fleur and Cedric just don't know why. But when things start to heat up again, a terrible surprise interrupts their life together. Um, sorta in C & F POV.

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed
Chapter 2 (PG) - Twice In One Day
Chapter 3 (PG) - No More Heartbreaks
Chapter 4 (PG) - Devious Plans
Chapter 5 (PG-13) - Unexpected Changes
Chapter 6 (PG-13) - Mischief
Chapter 7 (PG-13) - A Not-So-Pleasant Surprise

Fleur sighed, gazing out of the Beauxbatons dorm window. Why had Cedric treated her that way just hours before? She had been sitting here for what seemed like forever, pondering about that question over and over again. It didn't make sense to her. She was upset; was her relationship with him on the rocks? Or was he just having a bad day? Maybe he never really liked her, maybe he just used her to get Cho jealous.

Fleur shook her head lightly. She didn't think any of those were the reasons. But why they seemed so appealing to her, she didn't know.

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"You don't understand."
"No, really, I think I do."
"You've never been in love."
"Are you saying that Draco and I aren't in love?"
"Yes."
"We are too in love!"
"This isn't about you two! It's about Fleur and I!"

Cedric shook his head furiously. Ginny always manuvered her and Draco into their

conversations somehow, and it irked Cedric. They were sitting at the Hufflepuff table in the

Great Hall after lessons, just discussing things.

Ginny bit her lip and looked down, ashamed. "I'm sorry..." Cedric lifted her head up and raised a brow. "Don't apologize, just...I don't really appreciate you bringing Draco into everything, Ginny. It's quite annoying, actually." Ginny sighed. "Okay, I promise I won't do it ever again." "Good," Cedric smiled. "Back to Fleur and I. Well..."

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Cedric didn't know how it happened, or why it did, but he knew he was doing it, and it felt good. It felt good to him to have her in his arms. Even though they were fully clothed, they were engaging in a passionate snog session, and he liked it. No, he loved it. And Fleur did too.

And he knew it.

His arms were around her tiny frame, hands resting at the small of her back. Fleur was busy with his hair; oh, how she loved his hair. She loved to just brush her hands through it, comb it

with her fingers, or just plain touch it. At one point she completely forgot about kissing because she was so intent on messing up his hair, and her lips went numb. Cedric noticed and pulled away, wiping his mouth and taking a few deep breaths.

"Fleur?" he asked. She was still hugging him and messing his hair up at the same time. "I like your hair, Zedric," she said softly, breathing heavily.

"I noticed," he said plainly, pressing his lips back to hers and his tongue exploring her mouth gently once again.

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"Cedric, this third task is going to be a handful," Harry said. Sure, they had survived dragons and merpeople, but Harry was worried. "I think we should do some preparing for-"

"Great plan, really, Harry, but we don't have the faintest idea as to what the task even is,"

Cedric said, resting into the reclining chair that was in the library. "If we did, then sure, I'd love to help prepare, but we don't, so we just have to hope we can get through it."

Harry nodded as he looked at books, his fingers trailing the spines. "I just wish we had a clue, like the last task, you know?"

Cedric sighed, closing his eyes. "Yeah...that'd be nice."

"I just have this strange feeling that something terrible is going to happen...to Viktor, or Fleur, or even you and me..."

"Harry, I've had the same feeling. I think it's just nerves. Trust me, we'll be fine."

"If you say so."

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Fleur and Cedric were sitting together outside by the lake, by that tree, the same tree they had shared many moments before. Cedric was holding Fleur in his arms, her face buried in his chest. Tears streamed down her face and onto Cedric's robes. Fleur was crying hysterically and Cedric didn't know why...yet.

"Fleur...you can tell me...I love you, Fleur, please don't cry," Cedric comforted her for the tenth time, rubbing her back and placing a gentle kiss on top of her head.

Fleur sobbed, gripping Cedric's robes. "She iz dead, Zedric, dead!"

Cedric gulped, and looked down at her. "Who is, Fleur?"

Fleur once again sobbed some more, her eyes puffy and red. "My mum!" She heaved a big sigh and tried to stop the tears, but they kept coming. Cedric's eyes widened.

"I'm so sorry, Fleur," he said, hugging her close. He wanted to know how she died, if someone killed her, or what even happened, but decided not to interfere at the wrong time.

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Ding, ding, ding, ding, ding, ding.

Dumbledore was tapping an empty glass at dinner.

"Now, I'm sure everyone has enjoyed the tournament so far. But something has happened."

The Great Hall grew silent.

"A death has forced one of our four champions to drop out entirely," Dumbledore spoke firmly, eyeing the students carefully as they whispered about. The Beauxbatons' table was no longer there, Cedric realized.

Dumbledore took a deep breath and sighed. "I'm afraid that Fleur Delacour will no longer be a champion; therefore, no longer in the Triwizard Tournament. The Beauxbatons girls have left suddenly, I am sorry to say that you couldn't say your goodbyes. But if you wish to write to them, you may pay a visit to Professor McGonagall, who has their addresses."

A bunch of "NO!"'s echoed in the hall when Dumbledore mentioned Fleur.

Cedric's heart was beating faster. His true love...gone?! He held his face in his hands, not knowing how this could have happened. Someone had killed her mum to make sure Fleur wasn't in the tournament, to make sure that Fleur and Cedric wouldn't be together. But who?

Cedric thought he knew and looked over to the Ravenclaw table to find Cho grinning mischieviously at Dumbledore.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT PATTINSON!

2006-05-13T16:43:00Z

HAPPY 20 YEARS!
We love you, dear.
<3

Hover to see the text I wrote.

Steal it, claim it as your own, and you die.

Where has Butterflies and Badgers gone?! =O

2006-05-13T03:53:09Z

Well, Butterflies and Badgers had to be temporarily postponed. But now, I'm writing the next chapter (woohoo!) and I guarantee you'll love it. I think I'm going to do Fleur's POV this time, just so you can see what's inside HER head too. I like to experiment lol.

But you should be HAPPY I'm spacing the time between the chapters out. Because, well, there's only going to be 10 chapters (sorry! and no sequel!) but I'm going to work on my other fandom after this, Draco/Hermione. <3

So, I hope you're looking forward to the update. It might even be there later tonight or tomorrow. Most probably tomorrow.

Goodnight!

Tiring day.

2006-05-13T02:43:44Z

I spent 4 hours rollerblading, riding a scooter, skateboarding, running, playing baseball, soccer, volleyball, monkey in the middle, keep away, and all kinds of other stuff with the little kids in my neighborhood.

See how nice I am?

...I'm also pooped.

Headache.

2006-05-10T03:25:05Z

I am not in a good mood.

First of all, I have a headache that's killing me right now, and Advil isn't taking care of it.

Secondly, guys are freaking weird. They flirt with you one day, but ignore you the next. Like, wtf?!

Third, I'm incredibly sad about my grandfather's death, Miss I-am-going-to-send-you-to-the-disciplinary-office because-you-aren't-wearing-your-school-ID. FUCK OFF, BITCH. Everyone knows you're a fucking lesbian, so don't act like you aren't. Looking for my school ID is just another reason for you to look at my chest, whore.

Fourth, I really, really hate my body. I have varicose vains & cellulite on my nasty legs, my stomach is flabby, I have like shitloads of backfat, and my arms are nasty too, and I'm like practically flat chested, I'm just an A. And like, my feet are disgusting too and my double chin is nasty.

Yeah, I just really had to rant about my body. I know I'm not as bad as I say I am, but I still think I am 'cause I don't know. Mom says I have a mental illness. I guess she's right. -shrug-

SO DON'T FUCKING SAY OH STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF 'CAUSE I JUST HAD TO FUCKING RANT OKAY?!

Fifth, I hate when I get like this 'cause I come off as a total bitch even though I am one. But everyone has those days when they're pissed off, right?

El fin.

Didn't go to school today.

2006-05-09T02:14:27Z

Stayed home, did random stuff, yeah.
=/
I really have nothing to say other than...

I'm excited for tomorrow.

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 7

2006-04-30T05:39:02Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 7
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur (Ginny/Draco, even though it's not the main pair!)
Warnings: kissing, language
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: I'd give this whole chapter away if I wrote a summary, so I'm not going to write one. =) But it's in Cedric's POV. Before, the other chapters were pretty general, but I think writing in Cedric's POV is fun, so I will do that for the remaining chapters.

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed
Chapter 2 (PG) - Twice In One Day
Chapter 3 (PG) - No More Heartbreaks
Chapter 4 (PG) - Devious Plans
Chapter 5 (PG-13) - Unexpected Changes
Chapter 6 (PG-13) - Mischief

Fleur was sleeping on a hospital bed. Cedric was pacing around the room as if he was going to be a new father.

Fleur only had a broken leg, but it was broken in three places, therefore causing her short of breath. Madam Pomfrey had given her a sleeping draught so Fleur wouldn't feel the pain of the antidote, a potion.

It was in the wee hours of the morning, but Cedric wouldn't leave her side. Oh, he knew she'd be alright, but he loved her too much to leave her. And what would she think when she woke up and he wasn't there?

Madam Pomfrey had instructed her to leave once she woke up. However, she would only be able to wake up once her leg was healed. It had been a day and some odd hours since they first arrived there.

And Cedric was worried. Worried that he would never get to see Fleur's eyes sparkle the way they did when he touched her. Worried that he would never get to tell Fleur again that he loved her. Worried that he would never get the chance to propose to her. Or to marry her. Or to have beautiful, French, British, veela children.

Cedric's worries were swept away into oblivion when Fleur awoke. She was confused up until she saw Cedric. With a smile, she sat up. "Zedric."

Cedric walked over to her and kissed her forehead. "Fleur."

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Ginny was sitting on a bench just outside the Quidditch field, hand in hand with none other than Draco Malfoy. Harry never believed Cedric, so Cedric decided to "stalk" Ginny with him for a whole Saturday until she met up with Draco. And there they were.

"See? I told you, mate!" Cedric whispered, peeking at them from behind a tree. Harry was behind a tree next to Cedric and he was gawking at him. "I can't believe it...Ron's gonna freak...I mean, Draco called Hermione a mudblood, and we all know Ron's got a thing for Hermione, and Ron's little sister Ginny going out with the boy who called Ron's lover a mudblood...Oh this is too messed up..." His voice got louder with each word.

Cedric covered Harry's mouth. "Quiet! Or else they'll hear us." "Mmk," mumbled Harry. "Wemoo or an!" Cedric looked at him. "What?" Harry forced his hand off his mouth. "I said to remove your hand." "Oh," responded Cedric sheepishly.

Ginny and Draco were kissing.

"Can you believe her?!" Harry whispered angrily, his brows furrowing. Cedric shrugged. "Hey, I told you, man, but you didn't want to believe me..." "Oh, shut up." "Just trying to do the right thing. Hey, Harry, I'll see you around." "Why I oughta kill that mofo..." "Harry?" "Oh right, bye." "Bye."

Cedric walked from behind the tree, not caring if Ginny or Draco saw him. He placed his hands in his pockets and hummed a tune as he passed many giggling girls, shy first years, rough boys, and Slytherins, who just couldn't help but chant, "Diggory!"

Cedric waved politely at them. He really didn't want the Slytherins to be rooting for him, much less wearing those horrid badges. But it was out of his hands. He couldn't control everyone, not that he ever wanted to. And frankly, at the moment, he didn't care. He was feeling depressed and didn't want to speak to anyone. Not even Fleur.

He passed a group of Beauxbaton girls and didn't even to bother look at them. Fleur had said she was going to rest in the Beauxbatons dorm. He figured she'd still be there.

"ZEDRIC!" Footsteps became more apparent to the pretty boy. Cedric wheeled around, and it was none other than...

"Fleur?"

Fleur jumped into his arms and placed a sweet kiss on his lips. "Zedric! I feel much better now!" Cedric forced a smile as he held her. "That's...that's great, Fleur...I'm happy for you." Fleur spotted the sadness in his eyes and became concerned. "Zedric? What iz it?"

Cedric shrugged. So she noticed. "Nothing, Fleur...I...I just haven't been feeling like myself lately. I really need some time alone..."

Fleur tilted her head a bit, biting her lip. "Oh?"

"Yeah, I hate to do this to you...but...I really just need time to think..." He released her, kissed her hand, and then walked off, looking at the ground as he headed for the Hufflepuff common room.

He had left Fleur to ponder about what was going through his head. She stood there for a moment before returning to her friends. When asked what had happened, she replied, "I do not know..."

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The third task was just weeks away. Time had passed so quickly. It felt like just a few days ago, Harry was telling him about the dragons. Then he was telling Harry about the egg. The second task. The whole drama between him, Cho, Fleur. Draco and Ginny. Then the incident with Fleur and Draco and him.

Laying on his bed, he began to remember all the events in his head clearly. Hell, some of them came more clearly than others. Him and Cho...at the Yule Ball. Fleur with Roger. Oh, Cedric sure had felt some jealousy that night. His hatred for Roger was burning in his head. Seeing him dance with her, hold her hands, whisper in her ear, even give her a goodnight kiss on the cheek was painful.

And then he got with Fleur. But then that whole Cho thing. Both girls broke up with him and Fleur went back to Roger.

But now he finally had Fleur. She was his to hold. So why wasn't he happy? He had helped Fleur overcome a broken leg. Shouldn't he have felt happy about that? Or how Fleur was so eager to see him again? Or that he could hold her, kiss her, touch her whenever he wanted?

Cedric couldn't keep this feeling that something terrible was going to happen out of his mind. Could it be the tournament would be cancelled? Fleur would break up with him? He would lose the tournament? Or he wouldn't even get to participate it at all for some odd reason?

Whatever it was, he knew many would be affected by it, and he didn't like that. But perhaps it was just the fact that he didn't know what was going to happen that drove him so crazy. So crazy, that he was now in fact dreaming of all the possible things that could happen. It never occured to him that maybe, just maybe, someone would die in the future.

Cedric/Fleur fanmix

2006-04-29T23:11:18Z

Not for download, because I'm lazy. Maybe one day I'll upload these songs. They're all mainstream, so I'm sure you've heard them at one point or another on MTV or something. You can look up the lyics on letssingit.com, but beware of the evil popups on that site.

I put explanations on some that you might not get.
If you feel the need to add more songs, comment, and I'll do so.
Or if you've heard these songs and they aren't very fitting, feel free to tell me. I won't get hurt, don't worry. I mean, hey, I didn't spend much time making this. xD

Oh, & feel free to pimp this if you'd like!

Some songs are explicit. Curse words, sexual implications, you name it, some of these songs have it.

1. Beautiful Love by The Afters
Cedric's POV
Alternative
You may have heard this as the theme song for 8th & Ocean on MTV.

2. What I've Been Looking For by Troy & Gabriella OR Ryan & Sharpay
Cedric & Fleur's POV
Pop
You may have heard both versions on Disney's High School Musical. I suggest the Troy & Gabriella version, it sounds much more C/F.

3. Cater 2 U by Destiny's Child
Fleur's POV
R&B

4. Helena by My Chemical Romance
Fleur's POV, despite the fact a guy sings it
Alternative/emo
About Cedric's death. Might be a bit Cedric/boy, cause a guy sings it, but still.

5. Only U by Ashanti
Fleur's POV
R&B

6. Move Along by All American Rejects
Cedric's POV
Alternative
In case you don't get it, this could be what Cedric is thinking when he sees Fleur with Roger at the Yule Ball

7. XO by Fall Out Boy
Cedric's POV
Alternative/emo
If Cedric and Fleur were to have a one night stand...this would be the song for it.

8. I Write Sins Not Tragedies
Cedric's POV
Alternative/emo
Fleur's beautiful, right? So she's probably been with a ton of boys. This song can explain what goes on at their wedding.

9. We Belong Together by Mariah Carey
Fleur's POV
R&B

10. My Immortal by Evanescence
Fleur's POV
Alternative/emo
Cedric's death is huge to Fleur and it pains her to think about it. And she can't live without him.

Collectormania 9, fanmix, teenagers

2006-04-29T22:15:48Z

So, who's going or who has went?
I wish I could have, but I couldn't.
-sigh-
Another chance to meet Crackula (Robert Pattinson), but it's gone now...

Now, I'm going to make a fanmix of mainstream songs that are for Cedric/Fleur. =D

Will post it later.
Oh, but you'll have to download the songs yourself, since I'm too lazy to put them on a site for you. xD

Can someone please explain to me the need for underage teens to drink at every party they go to? Really. You DON'T need alcohol to have fun. I am 15, and I know that. Drinking young makes you at a higher risk for liver damage, even brain damage. Plus, when you're drunk, you have no control over what you do, or what happens to you. A sip of alcohol is okay, you won't get drunk off of that. But anything excessive is just...wrong. Now, go ahead, call me a goody goody, whatever. But I'm not going to be at a party, drunk, with fellow drunks, make out with random strangers, or even get raped, or killed by a mixture of alcohols. And when it happens to my friends who drink, I will laugh. No joke. I will laugh in their faces. Because I've warned them. And they know I have.

accioxang @ 2006-04-29T16:38:00

2006-04-29T21:54:52Z

A) Bold the names of celebrities you'd definitely shag.
B) Possibly shag after a little persuasion, put in italics.
C) Leave the ones you don't know of or wouldn't want to shag alone.
D) Strike the ones you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole.
E) ADD ONE OF YOUR OWN AT THE END

1. Stephen Dorff
2. Wesley Snipes
3. ~~Denzel Washington~~
4. Samuel L. Jackson
5. Hayden Christensen He's cute. Dunno.
6. Ian Somerhalder
7. James Van der
8. ~~Ashton Kutcher~~ evil s.o.b.
9. Sean William Scott
10. The Rock
11. Brendan Fraser
12. Oded Fehr
13. John Hannah
14. Hugh Grant
15. Colin Firth
16. Liam Neeson
17. Daniel Day-Lewis
18. ~~Leonardo Di Caprio~~ he's hot, but he annoys me so much.
19. Billy Zane
20. Harry Connick Jr
21. Sean Astin
22. Dominic Monaghan
23. Karl Urban
24. ~~Vin Diesel~~ holy FUGLY.
25. Paul Walker
26. Joshua Jackson
27. James Marsden
28. Shawn Ashmore
29. Hugh Jackman
30. Will Kemp
31. David Wenham
32. Viggo Mortensen
33. Elijah Wood ohh yeah. can you say hot?
34. Tobey Maguire he's hot. & he's spiderman. w00t.
35. James Franco
36. Alfred Molina
37. Harrison Ford
38. Sean Connery
39. Shane West
40. Stuart Townsend
41. Richard Roxburgh
42. Ewan McGregor
43. Jonathan Rhys Meyers
44. Christian Bale
45. ~~Jared Leto~~ his eyes bug me. xD
46. Colin Farrell
47. Ben Affleck
48. Josh Hartnett
49. Bruce Willis
50. Bob Thornton
51. Dennis Quaid
52. Jake Gyllenhaal another guy on my "To do" list...
53. Patrick Swayze
54. Keanu Reeves
55. Gary Oldman
56. Tim Roth
57. Steve Buscemi
58. Michael Madsen
59. Rick Yune
60. Pierce Brosnan
61. Robert Carlyle
62. Jonny Lee Miller
63. ~~Jude Law~~ CHEATER.
64. Matt Damon
65. Clive Owen
66. Ryan Phillippe
67. Benicio Del Toro
68. Johnny Depp he's not ugly, but he's not ZOMGHOT...
69. Orlando Bloom
70. Sean Bean
71. Eric Bana
72. Brad Pitt
73. George Clooney
74. Mark Wahlberg
75. Jason Statham
76. Edward Norton
77. Ben Stiller
78. Owen Wilson shut up xD i think he's got this oddly cute thing about him, despite that nose...
79. Vince Vaughn
80. Joaquin Phoenix
81. Russell Crowe
82. Billy Boyd
83. Paul Bettany
84. Heath Ledger
85. Mel Gibson
86. Jason Isaacs
87. Alan Rickman
88. Kevin Costner
89. Christian Slater
90. Antonio Banderas
91. ~~Tom Cruise~~ WHO WOULD SHAG HIM, ANYWAY?!
92. Ving Rhames
93. John Cusack
94. John Malkovich
95. Charlie Sheen
96. Kiefer Sutherland
97. Emilio Estevez
98. Rob Lowe
99. Matt Dillon
100. Kevin Bacon
101. Adam Brody yum.
102. Andy Serkis
103. Alan Cumming
104. Josh Groban
105. Sean Biggerstaff he was my obsession back in Chamber of Secrets time.
106. Zach Braff
107. Harry Sinclair
108. Gerard Butler
109. Marton Csokas
110. Jeremy Sumpter
111. Sean Patrick Flanery
112. Cillian Murphy his eyes are...wow.
113. Hugh Dancy
114. Ioan Gruffudd
115. Mads Mikkelsen
116. Enrique Murciano
117. Jamie Bamber
118. Craig Parker
119. Dean Cain
120. James Marsters
121. David Boreanaz
122. James Spader
123. Kevin Spacey
124. Al Pacino
125. Jim Caviezel
126. Josh Holloway
127. Will Smith
128. Matthew McConaughey
129. Patrick Wilson
130. Milo Ventimiglia
131. Jason Dohring
132. Brandon Boyd
133. Tom Welling
134. Sean Maher
135. Tré Cool
136. Billie Joe Armstrong
137. Mike Dirnt
138. Adrienne Armstrong
139. Jason White
140. Matthew Fox
141. Peter Sarsgaard
142. Derek Jeter
143. Travis Fimmel
144. Michael Vartan
145. Rob Thomas
146. James Purefoy
147. Michael Rosenbaum
148. Jensen Ackles
149. William Fichtner
150. Patrick Dempsey
151. Ace Young
152. Francis Capra
153. Ryan Hansen
154. ROBERT PATTINSON # 1 on my TO DO LIST! <33333
155. David Anders
156. Jimmy Fallon
157. Ralph Fiennes
158. Peter Wentz (MY ADDITION) Hotness <3

HOGWARTS HAVEN

2006-04-22T23:00:06Z

Okay, I'm pimping this uber cool Hogwarts roleplaying board.
You create a character, roleplay it, yaddah yaddah yaddah.
But you can't use an existing HP character, like Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger, etc.
MAKE SURE YOU READ THE RULES, THEY'RE COMPLEX.
I don't own this board, either.
My username on there is Juliette Rae.
And I'm the mean kid. Haha.

SO GET TO JOINING!

Hogwarts Haven

My week.

2006-04-22T16:59:40Z

Other than loads of schoolwork being heaped upon me, my week has been pretty awesome.

I was going to see Silent Hill last night with some friends, but on Friday, there was a dress code check. One of my friends got a detention for her shoes (flip flops with no sole, so glad I didn't wear mine that day!), and the other switched shoes with her so they could both have detentions.

Interims came out Friday, too. Mine was pretty bad, because I've been absent & missed loads of stuff. But I've made that stuff up and I'm happy about it. Except Science, that teacher hates me, and so wants to fail me. But I'll show her. As soon as we get more notes because an unexpected quiz was on Friday and yeah, I totally bombed it. Oh well.

And I really should dress out for P.E. I've got a D in that class. Oops. xD I'll just dress out from now on & bring that up to a B.

If you've noticed the ads on my page, it's because I want my 15 userpics. Yeah, yeah, lame but I am so not paying just so I can have that and a nifty layout. =P I still have to buy my domain and then I'm going to pay 10 dollars a month so I can play The Sims Online. I have missed it and summer is coming up, so I will be able to, yay!

Okay, I should probably go now, because I've got to do my Spanish project and English project. Both writing assignments. Damn. I'm gonna be killed by the end of this year. Note to self: DON'T SLACK OFF BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE SCHOOL YEAR THEY LIKE TO BOMBARD YOU WITH STUPID ASSIGNMENTS THAT ONLY LOSERS WOULD ENJOY DOING.

-_-' This is how I have to spend my Saturday. Whatever. Next weekend is going to be shitloads of fun.

And to those wanting an update on Butterflies & Badgers: Sorry, I may write it tomorrow but I'm going to try to not make it so short and stuff, and I'm going to make it less suckish. But don't worry, Fleur isn't going to die. And well, I can't tell you if Cedric will, because that would ruin the surprise at the end. So, believe that he dies, or that he doesn't, you'll know soon enough.

Bye! <3

I've decided that...

2006-04-18T04:02:06Z

I'm only going to surround myself with mature people from now on. Whatever age, it doesn't matter. I've lost friendships very dear to me and some friendships that I was just happy to get off my back because I was much too complex for certain others.

Just recently, I lost a friendship that was only good for one thing: me discovering Fall Out Boy. Now, don't get me wrong, I will admit that I may have possibly used this person for certain things, but it doesn't matter.

I'm the type of person who, if you love me, you are loyal to me, you will never talk behind my back, I will love you, I'll be loyal to you, and I will never talk behind your back. But if you are my friend only to find out what my feelings are, or stuff about my life to hurt me, then you will most certainly know that I'm only your friend for the same reason.

I give what I receive; plain & simple. I'm not going to tie my panties in a knot if you dislike me, or if you want to end our friendship. Because if you are one of my true friends, you won't want to end our friendship. And I love you for that.

I'm a very moody person. I'm a bitch. I'm a complex person. I think highly of myself, and anyone who mistakes that for narcississm clearly has some self esteem problems of their own. I'm a great friend. You can totally trust me with anything.

But if I get just an inkling that you are betraying me, watch out. It may just be the last time I ever do anything nice for you.

Don't be afraid to talk about it. Don't block me on messengers. If I block you, it's because at the moment, I don't feel like discussing it. There's probably more going on. At this moment, my grandpa is dying, and I love him so much, so no doubt about it, my buttons have already been pushed, and you don't want to push them some more.

The point is, no more phonies. No more obsolete dingbats (as Rita Skeeter puts it). If you expect me to be your friend, then you need to be a friend. I'm not going to deal with anymore people who will only be my friend until someone cooler comes around. And if I have been ignoring you, then I probably feel like you are one of those people who are only my friend until someone cooler comes around.

So basically, the people who I love because they actually value our friendship: Amanda, Doniyel, Matt, Sutton, Raquel, Ashley, Rachel, Liz, Jamie, John, Adrian, Ashley two, Alyson, Jordan. And there's many more, but thanks for being a friend. <3

This recent loss, if you can call it that because I don't consider it very important, has taught me many things. I'm grateful for what life has brought me these past few months. The ups and the downs, just like a rollercoaster, are exciting.

Oh, and one more thing:
U-NO-POO: The constipation sensation that's gripping the nation!
Lmfao, Fred & George Weasley <3

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 6

2006-04-17T23:27:38Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 6
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur
Warnings: kissing, language
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: Cedric finds out Ginny Weasley's secret and it's a big one. Draco Malfoy does something that causes a lot of pain. Cedric is finally seen at his worst.

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed
Chapter 2 (PG) - Twice In One Day
Chapter 3 (PG) - No More Heartbreaks
Chapter 4 (PG) - Devious Plans
Chapter 5 (PG-13) - Unexpected Changes

"Cedric, tell me you used protection."

"It wasn't on my mind at the time?" Cedric joked.

"Cedric, no!"

Cedric laughed. "Relax, Ginny. Fleur's on birth control. You know I wouldn't have gone through with it unless she was, or I had a condom, or something of the sort." Ginny nodded, embarrassed. "Oh, right. Well, I will kill you if she turns up pregnant." "I sincerely doubt she

will, Gin," Cedric leaned back into the reclining chair in the library. He had just told Ginny what had happened. Not in detail, of course, but the main things. Ginny was surprised and worried. She loved Cedric as a brother and didn't want him to have to deal with fatherhood at such a young age.

"So, tell me about you and your latest beau, Gin," he grinned, closing the book he was holding. He leaned forward, interested in hearing what she had to say.

Ginny blushed. "Oh, it's nothing, Cedric, you probably don't know him..."

"I know everybody. Just tell me."

"Oh, well, alright then. He's really wonderful and such a cute boy, and I'm really glad I hooked him, the only thing that worries me is that he's in Slytherin and a fourth year, and well, his friends hate me..." His eyes widened. "Slytherin? A fourth year?" Ginny nodded. Cedric shook his head. "No, no, no, no, you can't."

"But, Cedric!" "Ginny, he hates Weasleys! He's using you." "No, he doesn't, he wouldn't have kissed me-" "What? You're much too young for that!" "No, I'm not! You're too young to...to...do what you did with Fleur!" "But her and I are the same age! He's a year older!" "I'm really mature, you know that! You wouldn't have confided in me if you didn't, and Draco said-" "Draco Malfoy?!" "Oh, crap. Er, well, yes, but he's really sweet on the inside-" "I thought he was with Pansy Parkinson. Just wait until Harry hears this!" "But he doesn't have to know-" "Ginny, he will eventually find out...just do what you think is best, alright? Take care, I have to go meet Fleur." Cedric stood up and started towards the door. "But you-" "I have to go, see you later."

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Fleur jumped into Cedric's arms when she saw him. "I 'ave missed you so much, Zedric!"

Cedric lifted up her chin with his index finger and kissed her tenderly. "It's only been a few hours, beautiful," he smiled as he locked his fingers with hers. "Well, a few 'ours is a lot to me, it is 'ours that we 'ave not spent together," Fleur rested her head on Cedric's chest as they stood there in the evening. It was windy. The moon shone bright upon them; her hair was glistening and flowing freely. Cedric had neglected his hair and it was a mess, but Fleur didn't seem to mind.

Time passed and they were soon laying down cuddling by the lake once again. Wrapped around each other, they were seemingly content.

"Zedric, what do you want to be when you are older?" Fleur asked him, looking up at the star cluttered sky.

Cedric sighed. "I really don't know, Fleur. Whatever will allow me to stay close to you." Fleur smiled. "Zat is sweet." Cedric looked into her eyes and caressed her cheek. "You're sweet.'

He kissed her lightly and returned his gaze to the sky.

"AHA! CAUGHT IN THE ACT!" A yell emitted from just a few yards away.

Cedric and Fleur both sat up abruptly, not knowing who, or where, the outburst came from.

"Damn! Both clothed! Shit, now I can't do anything. Oh, wait, I can! You're out after hours!" Draco Malfoy laughed as he walked from out of the shadows.

Cedric stood and sauntered over to Draco cautiously. "But so are you," he smirked.

Draco grinned, obviously happy. "And that is the beauty of it! Haha! I'm working for Professor Snape. It was his turn to search the grounds for troublemakers such as yourselves, but since he was busy with important things, he appointed yours truly to do his duty." Draco pulled out his wand and shot red sparks out in the sky. "He will be coming shortly. No, wait, YOU CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM ME! EXPELLIARMUS! EXPELLIARMUS!"

Cedric and Fleur were thrown back onto the ground hard. Fleur screamed. "Fleur! Are you alright?" Cedric crawled over to her and picked her up in his arms. "I think I 'ave broken my ankle..." "Oh, no, MALFOY, YOU'RE GOING TO PAY!" Cedric drew out his wand and pointed it at Draco. "STUPEFY!" Draco fell backwards, stunned. Cedric put his wand up and slung Fleur back into his arms. Running to the castle as fast as he could, he looked back occasionally to make sure they weren't being followed. Fleur was crying. "Fleur, it's fine, we'll just get you to the hospital wing, don't cry, please don't, you'll make me cry..."

Fleur put both of her arms around Cedric's neck. "I can't 'elp it, Zedric, it's...ow, ow, pain, ow, painful..."

Cedric eventually got to the hospital wing. "Oh my! A Beauxbatons lady is injured? Well, we just can't have that! Let's see, oh, a broken ankle. I can fix that! Just drink this," Madame Pomfrey handed a small bottle to Fleur. Fleur chugged it down, eager to have no more pain. She gagged. "Zat is dizgusting!" Madame Pomfrey nodded. "Well, it's either this, or a very painful spell, and I suppose you have had enough pain, am I right?" Fleur nodded. "In a few moments, you will be healed, and then you can go. I'm not even going to ask why you two are out late, but I can assure you both I will not tell."

"Thank you so much," Cedric said, holding Fleur's hand. Madame Pomfrey left the room, humming a song. "Are you in pain anymore, Fleur?"Fleur smiled weakly. "Not now, zat you are 'olding my 'and, and comforting me. I love you, Zedric." Fleur's eyes closed quickly."I love you too, Fl-" Cedric stopped. "Fleur? Fleur?" He put his head to her chest. Nothing. "HELP! HELP! HELP! HELPPP!" He ran frantically around the room, looking for something, or someone, anyone. His heart was racing; sweat dripped down his face; and he was breathing heavily. Madame Pomfrey ran out and saw Fleur. "What is it?" Cedric sobbed. "SHE'S NOT BREATHING!"

So we're breaking free.

2006-04-17T03:20:16Z

D=

Periods suck. Cramps, bloating, mood swings, oh yeah, and then there's that red mess you have to deal with. Tampons only staying in 4-6 hours, the worry of getting Toxic Shock Syndrome, pads showing through your clothes, leaking. Then when the whole party in your vagina is over, you feel incredibly weak.

D= Ah, yes. Being a girl is oh so fun. /sarcasm

But at least we can wear make up. And cute clothes. And shop for matching bras and panties. And paint our nails. Have sleepovers with our best friends. Kill ourselves in high heels just so we look good. Smother our cell phones and ipods in those stick on rhinestones. Watch girly shows like Desperate Housewives and My Super Sweet Sixteen.

But the best thing...we can cry at movies and not be called pussies! -laughs-

So how has your week been? Mine? Incredible. I didn't do my Science project, I probably failed an English test, I found out my grandpa is going to die in 6 months to a year because he has stage four liver cancer, it's that time of the month for me, and there is so much more.

But life goes on.

Oh yeah.

HAPPY EASTER!

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 5

2006-04-15T04:16:50Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 5
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur
Warnings: a little bit of liplocking. nudity. more is suggested.
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: Cho is jealous. Not just jealous, but full of dislike as well. Ginny and Cedric discover they don't want to pretend anymore. And Fleur wants Cedric back.
I am pretty sure this is the longest chapter of them all. It's not the end! But it's pretty good, so make sure you read!

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed
Chapter 2 (PG) - Twice In One Day
Chapter 3 (PG) - No More Heartbreaks
Chapter 4 (PG) - Devious Plans

Cedric Diggory was walking down the Great Hall, hand in hand with Ginny Weasley, a grin from ear to ear temporarily plastered onto his face. Of course, he had no romantic feelings for Ginny. He was just trying to get Fleur jealous. But he was getting the wrong girl jealous as well.

Cho was watching from the Ravenclaw table. Marietta tapped her shoulder. "Cho, you're looking intently at them, and pretty soon, I think they'll notice..." Cho jumped slightly. "Oh, oh, right. I just miss him so much. And he went for a thirteen year old as well. What does that Ginny Weasley have that I don't have?"

Marietta shrugged. "She definetely doesn't have your figure, if you know what I mean. But I suppose Cedric thinks she will, I mean, look at her mother. She's pretty big in a good way." Cho glared at her friend. "Not funny, Marietta! I need to get Cedric back somehow." "Aren't you mad at him for going out with that Fleur Delacour?" "Yes, but I love Cedric, and I can't ignore those feelings for much longer." Marietta rolled her eyes. "Love is rubbish." Cho sniffled a bit and went back to eating her breakfast.

Cedric and Ginny stopped by Ron, Harry, and Hermione. Their arms snaked around each other's backs and Ginny sighed happily. Waving their goodbyes, Ginny sat down next to Ron and giggled. Cedric walked over to the Hufflepuff table and started talking rapidly to his friend Ernie, that grin still proudly upon his handsome features.

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Cedric was on his way to the Hufflepuff dormitory when Cho had caught up with him. He kept on walking until Cho grabbed his arm and tried to get an explanation for his recent behavior. Cedric stopped by a portrait of a man sleeping and sighed. He clenched his teeth.

"Cedric, how could you go for such a young'in?

"Look, Cho, you dumped me. I'm not going to discuss my relationship with Ginny, it's private and since we aren't friends anymore, I don't feel the need to let you know."

Cedric clenched his teeth and folded his arms. "Besides, we're over, Cho, and I'm not going to do anything about it because I don't have any feelings towards you."

Cho begged desperately and was even on the verge of crying now. "Cedric, how could you, though? She's so much younger than you, she's nothing special, she's hardly mature, she's even ugly, and-"

"Cho, you don't know her! So don't trash talk her, at least not in front of me! I'm going now. Goodbye!" Cedric stormed off angrily, taking in some deep breaths, his brows furrowed.

"But Cedric!"

Cedric turned around, fuming. In a very unlike-Cedric voice, he yelled overdramatically, "CHO, I DON'T LIKE YOU! I NEVER WILL! LEAVE ME ALONE!"

Everyone in the hall was watching them curiously. Some people were whispering. Cho became a human showerhead and ran in the other direction, wailing. Cedric groaned and started again.

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"And it happened, just like that."

Cedric was telling Ginny what had happened just a few hours earlier. They were both sitting on a bench in the courtyard, Cedric stroking Ginny's hair. Ginny pushed his hand away. "Cedric, you were awfully rude to her. After all, she does have to deal with this, even if this isn't real."

Cedric shrugged. "Ginny, it doesn't matter. Fleur hasn't spoken to me in days. I think we should end this act. It was fun, no doubt, but I miss Fleur and it's not working." He sighed, scratching his head sullenly. "I made the wrong girl jealous and that wasn't supposed to happen."

Ginny nodded, understanding completely. "You're right, Cedric. Well, yes, it was definetely nice. Now I can go back to dating and stuff. But if you ever need anything else, just ask, alright? After all, you are like a huge help to my brother's best friend in this tournament."

Cedric laughed. "Alright. I'll remember that." He shared a friendly hug with her and walked away. Not knowing where to go, he thought he would go sit by the lake and ponder his next move.

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He found a nice spot by a huge oak tree with many branches sprouting from it. Sitting down, he heard someone coming by the crackling of the leaves being pushed on by shoes, but thought nothing of it. He leaned against the tree and fiddled with a stick.

"I zaw you going to ze lake and I zought I should come, too."

He stopped twirling the stick around with his fingers and gulped. He turned his head slightly to see who it was, though he already knew. It was Fleur.

"Why are you here, Fleur? To brag about you and Roger?" Cedric concealed his happiness by being cynical.

Fleur sat close to him. "No, I was just saying 'ow much I missed you. Me and Roger broke up. I love you, Zedric." She placed her head on his shoulder slowly.

Cedric put his arm around her back and caressed her shoulder. "I love you too, Fleur."

And then he kissed her passionately.

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"Zedric, do I 'ave to wake your zilly 'ead up again?" Fleur playfully tickled his bare torso. They were both lying naked, under Fleur's Beauxbatons dress and Cedric's Hufflepuff robe. With his grey eyes still closed, Cedric smiled. "I'm awake," he whispered in her ear.

Fleur kissed him and then sat up. She heaved a deep breath, not believing what had went on the night before. All she remembers is kissing Cedric and then lying underneath him, feeling some pressure on her abdomen. Oh, yeah, Fleur thought to herself. That happened. She giggled a bit.

Cedric sat up next to her, pulling on his boxers, then his pants, then his shirt. As he clothed himself, Fleur did the same, started with her underclothes and then that horrid dress that she hated so much.

"So, what do you want to do today?" Cedric asked Fleur, relaxing his arms behind his head. Fleur snuggled up to him, laying her head on his chest. "I want to stay 'ere for the rest of eternity, lying next to you and talking about abzolutely nothing," she said, smiling.

"I do too," he responded, his arm finding it's way around the small of her back.

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 4

2006-04-10T02:48:57Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 4
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur
Warnings: cursing
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: Cedric and Ginny? Why, it can't be. Or can it? Cho catches on and creates bad feelings for Ginny. Fleur becomes jealous and tells her sister to spy.
This chapter is a bit short, I'm sorry! And I'm sorry about the PG ratings. Trust me, in the next few chapters, things will heat up!

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed
Chapter 2 (PG) - Twice In One Day
Chapter 3 (PG) - No More Heartbreaks

"YEAH! They were kissing! Not kissing, but totally making out!" Hermione and Angelina Johnson giggled as they passed a group of Beauxbatons girls. "Cedric and Ginny? Who would have known?!" Angelina snickered. Hermione nodded. "They were getting mighty cozy in the library, it's no wonder they were kicked out of there!"

Fleur glanced for long periods of time over at Hermione and Angelina, feeling envious and suddenly betrayed. "Zedric and Ginny?" she whispered to her little sister. "I want you to befriend zis Ginny and find out all zeir juicy little zecrets." Gabrielle raised a brow but then nodded and pranced off to the Great Hall, in hopes of finding Ginny.

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"Stop it, Cedric!" Ginny purred as Cedric kept fiddling with her hair, creating messy locks of ginger with every twist.

"I'm sorry, Ginny, but I just love the texture of your hair...it's so soft and silky and...ooh..." He nuzzled her neck. "Your skin is so soft, too..." Ginny smiled. "Not now, Ced, I need to finish this Potions homework..."

Cedric grinned. "Alright, Gins, catch you later," he kissed her cheek. Ginny muttered her goodbye dreamily and was left with a stunned look on her face. "I don't know how I got such a great catch," she was bragging to Seamus Finnigan. Turning his head sideways to draw a diagram of animagus transformation, he nodded, not quite listening to what Ginny was saying. "Oh, come on, Seamus. You said yourself that Cedric is a really great guy!" Ginny rolled up her parchment and slid it into her bag.

Seamus yawned and said something that sounded like jibberish under his breath. Pushing back his hair, he grabbed his things and stood up. "I'm gonna go...tired...night...bye..." He dragged himself slowly out of the Great Hall.

Gabrielle sat down next to Ginny. "Oh my goodnezz, your 'air is le magnifique! Tell me, iz it natural?" Gabrielle smirked and leaned against the table, eyeballing Ginny's hair.

"Oh, thanks, and yes, it is." Ginny looked around for Cedric but then turned her attention back to Gabrielle. "You have some pretty hair as well, you're a veela, right?"

Gabrielle nodded. "Yes, yes, I am, and so iz my zister, Fleur Delacour. My name is Gabrielle Delacour. It's such a pleazure to meet you!" She shook Ginny's hand rather enthusiastically. Ginny smiled, "Ginny Weasley, I have many brothers. It's a pleasure to meet you too!" She looked around and spotted Fred and George linking arms and skipping around the room, singing. "There's two of them."

Gabrielle laughed. "Yes, yes, Fred and George, I 'ave 'eard of them. Zey are ze clowns of ze family, am I right?" Ginny nodded. "Yes, yes, well, they are quite immature. Rather annoying when you live with them. Well, I have to go. It's getting late and I need to work on some more homework. Double Defense Against The Dark Arts is not good at all. I'll see you later," Ginny stood up and brushed herself off. She said her farewells to Gabrielle and walked to the doors.

Gabrielle sighed as she placed both her arms on the table and laid her head on them. Another day, I guess, she thought to herself.

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Cedric met up with Ginny early in the morning the next day by the Forbidden Forest. They embraced in a friendly hug. "I don't think anyone's around so we don't have to keep up this act. Cedric, I think Gabrielle, Fleur's sister, is catching onto us. She came up to me yesterday and created a casual conversation about my hair." Cedric bit his lip. "Well, unless we can convince Gabrielle that we really are going out..."

"What are you saying?" "We have to act more like a couple and less like friends." "And uh, what does that mean? Cedric, you promised that we would never have to engage in kissing with our lips." "No, not that. Maybe we should hold hands or something. You did tell your brothers this is just for show, right?" "Um, yes, Ron wasn't exactly happy. Oh, Harry knows too. And Hermione. Oh, practically everyone I can trust in Gryffindor does."

Cho was watching them talk from the Owlery. "How dare she...doesn't she...ugh! That damn Cedric, he rebounds too quickly!" Cho was clearly upset, eyes filling with tears, her heart beating fast. She turned abruptly and walked towards the Ravenclaw dormitory.

Cedric gulped. "Okay, well, when we see each other, kiss on the cheek, hug, hold hands, and that's it, alright?" Ginny nodded and gave him a small hug. "See you," she blew a kiss flirtily in case someone was watching. Cedric grinned and waved.

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 3

2006-04-03T01:59:43Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 3
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur
Warnings: kissing
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: Cedric goes back to Fleur and tries to get sympathy. Will she take him back?

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed
Chapter 2 (PG) - Twice In One Day

"No, she broke up with me when I told her. Then later, I told Cho there was another girl, and she became a bucket of tears and broke up with me as well," Cedric said to Ernie. "You're in a terrible boat, Cedric. But you're single now, free to date anyone! What about one of Cho's friends? They're all equally gorgeous," Ernie said, nudging Cedric's arm.

Cedric sighed and shook his head. "No, I can't do that. You don't understand. I love Fleur; I couldn't date anyone else but her. She's wonderful and beautiful, inside and out. I only wish she'd take me back, but she would never believe me. And I don't even know where she's staying, so it's not like I could use floo powder to get to her."

"Oh, it's easy. The Beauxbatons ladies are staying in a special dormitory on the Hogwarts grounds. I don't know how to get there, but apparently, Dumbledore has two dormitories. One for Beauxbatons and one for Durmstrang. I've visited Durmstrang before, but they kicked me out," Ernie said gleefully. Ernie, being the obsessed fanboy of Krum that he is, knew where the Durmstrang dorm was, but not Beauxbatons.

Cedric stretched his arms and legs while pacing around the room. "That's not helping me, Ernie. I need to know how to get to her." "I can't help you with that, but there is always a chance you will see her on the grounds. I hear she likes to sit by the lake at night and think about the day," Ernie was trying to help Cedric, but it wasn't working.

"You heard she does? That's still no good, Ernie! I need to know!"

"There's no harm in just looking for her tonight, Cedric. Or right now, it's pretty late already."

"I guess you're right," Cedric grabbed his wand, stuffed it in his pocket, and walked out of the dormitory into the empty common room. He crept out of the door into the hall, ran down flights and flights of stairs, passed up several girls who were freaking out about the fact that Cedric just ran past them, and finally made it outside. He walked for ten minutes towards the lake when he saw a figure sitting against a tree, looking at the peaceful waters.

Cedric walked closer and noticed that it was indeed Fleur Delacour. He kneeled down next to her. "Fleur?"

"What iz it that you want, Zedric? I am not interested in you anymore," she said coldly.

"Fleur, I want you to take me back. You never understood what I had said. When I met you, I was in awe of your beauty and intelligence. You were so perfect; I completely forgot about the girl I was dating. Cho never even crossed my mind the entire holiday. I feel terrible about what I've done and I hope I can make it up to you. Fleur, Cho and I aren't a couple anymore. She dumped me earlier after I told her about you. I know this is probably a bit much to be asking for, but I can't see my life without you. You're my world, Fleur. Without you, I'm nothing, I'm weak. I love you," Cedric said. He felt these were the right words to say as they came so easily to him.

Fleur looked back to the lake. "'Ow do I know that what you are saying iz true?" Cedric picked up her chin and turned her face to his. "Have you ever heard of the saying, 'It's in his kiss?'" Fleur nodded. Cedric smiled. "Well, then you will know once I kiss you."

Cedric leaned in towards her, using his other hand to hold himself over her. He brought his lips to hers gracefully and they embraced each other with their arms. Cedric's hands crept down to the small of her back and they were soon making out. Fleur pulled herself away from Cedric and pushed him off her.

"Zedric, I would love to be a couple," she smiled. Cedric grinned and leaned in for another kiss, but Fleur pushed him away once again. "But today, Roger Davies asked me to be 'is girlfriend."

Cedric's mouth fell open. "What are you saying, Fleur?"

"I said yes to 'im," Fleur said, looking down, then back to Cedric. Her eyes were sad and wet. "I am zo sorry, Zedric, but you broke my 'eart and it 'urt terribly. I cannot bring myself to another 'eartbreak zis year, especially not with another champion, whom I will 'ave to do another task with."

Fleur stood up and walked away, crying a bit. Cedric fell back onto the grass, closing his eyes. I blew it, he thought. This is just great.

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"You're WHAT?! No, Cedric, you CAN'T do that!" Ginny screamed. Cedric had gone to the library the next day to find Ginny there. When asked why he looked so gloomy, he told her why.

"Ginny, I have to. I have no other choice. I can't continue this. First Fleur, then Cho, then Fleur again. Seeing Fleur with Roger just kills me," Cedric said, sighing. Ginny groaned. "Oh my goodness, Cedric! If people only knew how weak you really are, you would lose your reputation like that!" She snapped rapidly.

Cedric raised a brow at her. "Then what am I supposed to do? Go on like this? Miserable? Lose this whole thing, just because I can't stand to beat Fleur? Just let her win unfairly because I love her?"

"You'd let her win unfairly in this tournament even if you two were going out, Cedric. No, I won't allow you to drop out of the tournament. You have to persevere. If you don't, then you're just making the odds for that Viktor Krum to win bigger. Honestly, Cedric!" She shook him gently. "Snap out of this way of thinking. You have to do this. I know you can win. I'm supporting Harry, but I know one of you will come out on top."

"Ginny, look, I've made up my mind, and I'm dropping out. I'm going to speak to Professor Dumbledore later this afternoon. He'll have to. I don't know, I'll make myself ill or something. I can't do the last task, I just can't!" Cedric said angrily.

Ginny patted his shoulder. "Okay then. Do what you want. But when Viktor wins, I don't want you to go on and on about how he's the greatest seeker in the world and already has eternal glory. Cedric, no one out of Hogwarts, Durmstrang, and Beauxbatons knows how great you are. You have to show the world."

"I'm just going to take a walk and think this over. See you," Cedric said, grabbing his books and walking out of the library. Ginny rolled her eyes. "Stupid lovesick boys..." she muttered.

Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 2

2006-04-02T02:50:18Z

Title: Butterflies and Badgers - Chapter 2
Genre: Romance, Suspense, Action
Rating: PG
Pairings: Cedric/Fleur
Warnings: kissing
Status: WIP
Summary/Notes: Cedric and Fleur know they can't stay together, but they don't listen. They're forced to stay apart and they'll do anything to see each other again. But when Fleur finds out about Cho, she becomes angry with him.

Other chapters have different ratings so if you're easily offended, make sure you read the info before them.
Other chapters: (ratings in parenthesis)
Chapter 1 (R) - Caught Red-Handed

Cedric Diggory was lying on his bed at Hogwarts, his hands holding his head. He couldn't get her out of his mind. Every time he would think about something else, Fleur just popped back into his thoughts, again and again. It was nearing two in the morning and he couldn't drift off into sleep as hard as he tried. Ernie, a fellow Hufflepuff, was tossing in his sleep, murmuring random things, which didn't help Cedric at all. He sighed and finally pulled the covers over his head, closed his eyes, and blocked out all thoughts unwillingly. Within an hour he was snoring.

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"Wake up, zleepy head! It is four in ze morning and I am 'ere to zee you!"

Cedric stirred. Did he just hear what he thought he heard?

"Zedric!" Fleur pounced on him playfully and planted a sweet kiss on his wet lips. Cedric scratched his head, making his hair stick up slightly. "Fleur, how did you get here?" Cedric responded

"You are not 'appy to zee me?" Fleur looked disappointed until Cedric shook his head sleepily. "Oh, no, I'm very excited to see you, I just don't understand how you could get into my dormitory, or the common room..."

Fleur smiled, "I used ze floo powder! My little sister 'ad some left and gave it to me, so I used it to zee you!" She slid underneath the covers with him and hugged him, noticing he was shirtless. "Ah, Zedric, being a naughty boy when I wasn't 'ere, I zee?" Cedric brought his lips to hers for a moment, wrapping his arms around her small waist. "No, this is how I always sleep. Say, Fleur, did anyone see you here?" Cedric looked around the dormitory; everyone appeared to be sleeping. Fleur shook her head, resting it against his chest. "No, I don't think zo..." "Good," he kissed the top of her head and held her in his arms as they fell asleep together.

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"Ooh, Cedric's got a new girlfriend!" Ernie snickered, waking them both up. Fleur rubbed her eyes and looked to him. "And who are you?" Cedric glared at him. "That's Ernie, a very trusting boy who won't tell anyone that you are visiting and that I am going out with you, right, Ernie?"

Ernie was silent, then he burst into laughter. "That is so funny, Cedric! Hahaha!" Cedric glowered once more. "Oh um, right, yeah. I won't tell anyone. It'll be our little secret. Good thing no one else saw you, it's Saturday, and everyone ran off to Hogsmeade."

Cedric groaned, remembering his date with Cho in The Three Broomsticks. Ernie gulped. "Uh oh...listen, did you tell her, Cedric?" Cedric shook his head. "No, I haven't..." "Tell me what?" Fleur asked pleadingly.

Cedric motioned for Ernie to leave and he did as he was told. Cedric swung his legs off the bed and stood up. He gazed at her. "You look very beautiful, Fleur..." Fleur stood up as well; she was wearing jeans and a tank top, her hair was a complete mess, and she had no make-up on. "Zedric, do not change ze subject. Tell me, what do you 'ave to say?"

Cedric sighed. He grabbed her hand and rubbed it. "Before you and I became serious...I already had a steady girlfriend. Then, over the holidays, as we got to know each other, I realized I loved you and wouldn't trade you for the world." Fleur smiled a bit. "But what about ze other girl? Did you zeparate?"

Cedric shook his head. "I completely forgot about her until now. I had plans to meet her in Hogsmeade today, like on a date, but I don't want to go. I'll have to break up with her, but if she finds out you are here, she might try to do something to you."

"So you 'ave been two timing 'er with me?" Fleur teared up, causing her face to go red and her eyes to swell slightly. "I am dizgusted with you, Zedric. I thought you loved me." Fleur wiped her eyes as she sobbed. Cedric held out his arms but Fleur pushed him away. "Fleur, no, I forgot about her, I'm going to break up with her later..." "It doesn't matter, Zedric! You were dating 'er while dating me! It's over between us!" Cedric opened his mouth to speak but Fleur interrupted him. "I can't believe myself, how I could never zee that you loved someone else..." Fleur ran out of the dormitory, leaving Cedric speechless and heartbroken. What did I do wrong? he asked himself silently.

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Cedric walked into The Three Broomsticks sullenly, and there she was, sitting beautifully in the corner with her hair in a messy bun, smiling exuberantly, Cho Chang. Cedric took a deep breath as he walked to her table. She stood up and leaned in for a kiss, but Cedric pushed her away. "Cho, I have to tell you something."

Cho frowned and sat back down. Cedric sat in the chair across from her. "I think we need to break up."

"What? Why?" Cho said, confused. Her and Cedric's relationship had been great for the past few months. She didn't understand why Cedric would break up with her, unless there was another girl.

Cedric clutched his arm. "Well, you see, there's another girl and...I love her. Don't get me wrong, Cho, I love you too, but more like a sister than a girlfriend. And well, I just think we should end this now before you get too deep in this thing and-"

"What? Before I get too d-deep? Cedric, I'm already there!" Cho yelled, her cheeks glistening. "You p-promised me we would get married a-after Hogwarts! And you're just going to c-crush our future together w-when we were doing perfectly fine? Some g-girl comes along and you just f-forget about me!" She buried her face in her hands and stood up. "I'm going to e-end this, Cedric. I c-can't believe y-you! After all you said, I j-just don't b-believe it!" Cho ran out bawling, leaving everyone in the room staring at Cedric. He blushed. "Um, she had a bad butterbeer, that's all..." He rubbed his forehead. Now he had two girls regretting his existence in their lives. And now, he was starting to even regret his own existence.

Oh no...

2006-04-02T01:33:38Z

I'm pregnant.
I took a test earlier.
It was positive.

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!
I'm not pregnant.
I never took a test so therefore it cannot be positive.
And I never had sex, btw.
=D Haha.
I wonder if anyone fell for that. =O

=D

2006-03-26T22:39:34Z

Okay so I'm listening to the 4 songs I bought off iTunes. Don't laugh at me. =P
What I've Been Looking For - Ryan & Sharpay
We Be Burnin' - Sean Paul
Stupid Girls - P!nk
Move Along - All American Rejects

-sings- Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back...

Haha. This song is so amazing. P!nk's such a great artist. I love her music, haha, even if she can't sing very well.

Flippin' my blonde hair back, push up my bra like that...

Edited out the rant about how I feel. =D SO NOW YOU CAN'T READ IT HAHAHA.

I want a taco.
You know who can't have a taco?
CEDRIC.
Because he's dead.

Okay so I just quoted one of the greatest icons in the universe.